This story is intended
for mature audiences due to language and the vivid depiction of a consensual
adult relationship. This fic is for my top
secret technical advisor and chief muse.
She gives me all her best ideas for free.
“Drumming”
There's a drumming noise inside my head
That starts when you're around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an almighty sound
Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell
That starts when you're around
I swear that you could hear it
It makes such an almighty sound
Louder than sirens
Louder than bells
Sweeter than heaven
And hotter than hell
Florence and the Machine, Lungs c2009
I am so heavy in your arms.
So heavy… Can’t keep my eyes
open. You’re careful not to hurt the
fresh knife wound in my chest as your strong arms lovingly support me. I gasp helplessly, feeling myself slipping
and finally falling… falling…bright lights filling my unseeing eyes. Matt, are you still there holding me? Don’t let me go, Cowboy. Please hold me tightly…
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Two hours earlier…
“You bitch! You stole
my money!” Eustace Horatio Johnson was
sweating profusely and trembling with anger, fueled by too much cheap whiskey
and too few greenbacks left in his pocket.
Kitty Russell held up a conciliatory hand and laid down her
cards, pushing gracefully away from the poker table in a swish of black-beaded,
green silk taffeta. “Now, wait just a
minute, Mr. Johnson. I don’t appreciate…”
“I want my money back now!”
Johnson’s eyes were wild as he jumped up, overturning his chair. “You cheated me!”
Sam Noonan was instantly on alert. Out of the corner of her eye, Kitty could see
him reach unobtrusively behind the bar for the shotgun he kept stashed
there. Sam hissed to Louie Pheeters who
stood nearby, “Quick! Go get the
Marshal!”
“Cheated you?” Kitty
tried to reason with the infuriated man as she stood and spoke calmly, “See
here, mister, I won fair and square.
These other men here can tell you, I always…”
“No, dammit! I need
that money back now!” Eustace Johnson drew a glinting knife from his
belt and quickly wrapped his arm around Kitty’s neck, yanking her tightly
against his grimy, perspiring body. “And
I’m gonna take it.” He pressed the blade
menacingly against the tender décolleté above her low-cut evening gown as she
grimaced in pain.
“Miss Kitty!” Sam cried, hauling the shotgun from beneath
the bar and aiming a bull’s-eye at Johnson’s head. The remaining saloon patrons hastily parted
like the Red Sea between them.
Johnson’s eyes grew wider as he tightened his grip around
Kitty’s neck and jerked her closer against him.
“I wouldn’t do that, barkeep. You
might hit this purty little woman here. Pick
up that money for me, bitch, and put it in my pocket.”
Kitty awkwardly stretched to reach for the cash on the poker
table, blindly stuffing it into the man’s pocket. “There…satisfied?” she breathed. “Now take your money and go.”
“Nuh-uh…you’re goin’ with me, bright eyes…” he grinned malevolently
at her. “I know what to do with a
cheatin’ wh...”
“Hold it right there!”
Matt Dillon stood just inside the swinging doors with his six gun drawing
a bead right between Eustace Johnson’s eyes.
Johnson gritted his teeth and pressed the knife harder into Kitty’s soft
skin, making her cry out when the razor-sharp blade drew blood.
Matt Dillon’s voice was cold as ice, “Let the lady go,
mister.”
“Lady??” Johnson laughed.
“This here red-headed whore is comin’ with me. She’s my ticket outta’ Dodge. So don’t you follow me, lawman, if you don’t
want me to slice her up real good.”
Matt’s voice dropped to a deadly low tone as he began, “I
said…” Steely-eyed, his gun hand never
wavered as he cocked his pistol and warned quietly, “…let the lady go.”
“No!” Johnson hissed. “She’s the only thing that’s gonna’ get me
outta here alive!” He squeezed her
throat tighter and Kitty gasped for air.
“Besides, this little woman is a fine one, ain’t she? I’m gonna have me some fun with her, yes,
indeed.” He snickered and shifted the
knife, dragging it down her torso until it lay near the junction of her
legs. “I’m gonna’ get me a piece of
this.”
Kitty’s eyes grew wide at his words and she looked into
Matt’s gaze for the briefest instant.
Then she rammed Johnson with her elbow with all her might, forcing him
to release her as he groaned and clutched his stomach. She made it only two steps away when Johnson
snatched her arm again. As he dragged
her back towards him, she heard a shot ring out. Eustace Johnson instantly fell dead with
Marshal Matt Dillon’s bullet between his eyes.
Kitty quickly stumbled away from the body and stood staring
at Matt. He replaced his pistol into his
holster and walked up to her. They
briefly embraced, her eyes mutinously filling with tears she refused to let
escape, and he patted her back soothingly for a few moments. But, wary of curious eyes all around the
room, they stepped apart. Matt murmured
in her ear, “I’ve got to take care of things here.” He pulled a clean handkerchief from his
pocket and placed it against the bleeding cut on her chest. “I’ll shut this place down for the
night. You go on upstairs, Kitty.” He looked into her brimming eyes, then down
at the blood stain seeping through the handkerchief, and promised, “I’ll send
Doc to tend to you right now, but I’ll be back later.”
She nodded mutely, afraid to speak for fear the tears would begin.
Matt squeezed her fingers comfortingly, then guided them
carefully over the handkerchief, applying pressure, before reluctantly
releasing her hand. He turned to find
someone to help him take Eustace Horatio Johnson’s now lifeless body to Percy
Crump’s. Kitty turned and slowly climbed
the stairs to her room, alone.
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“It’s just a flesh wound, honey. I think I can close it up with only a coupla’
three stitches, by golly.”
That’s what Doc told me in my room later. I’d taken off the green silk dress, ruined by
my own bloodstains, and sat on my bed in my underthings while Doc busily
stitched me up.
“You think it’ll leave a scar, Doc?”
“No…I don’t think so.”
He dabbed at the shallow bleeding wound with some fresh cotton wool. “You’ll be fine, Kitty. Just keep the cut clean.”
I took a deep breath.
“Can I take a bath?”
He looked at me curiously.
“I feel…” I couldn’t meet his eyes. “…dirty.”
“Sure, that shouldn’t be a problem. Just take care with the stitches. I’m gonna leave some powders for you in case
it gets to hurting.” He patted my
shoulder and cleaned the wound one last time with something that stung my skin.
I tried not to wince.
“Thanks, Doc.”
“You want me to tell Sam when I go downstairs to haul some
water up here for you?”
“Yeah, I’d appreciate that.”
I smoothed the petticoats over my lap and reached a tentative finger
toward his needlework.
“Ah, ah, ahh, young lady.
Keep your hands off that. Try and
keep it dry, but after you take a bath, bandage it up with this.” He dropped a roll of bandages on the table
and scrubbed his face wearily. “Call for
me if you need my help, but I think you’ve watched me bandage up enough
patients to…” His voice trailed off and
his eyes locked with mine. Doc suddenly
reached for me and hugged me tight, taking care not to touch my new stitches. His voice was strained, “I sure am glad
you’re alright, young lady.”
“Thanks, Doc, I’m glad too.”
I smiled so that I wouldn’t cry and hugged him tighter, threading my
fingers through his wiry gray curls. He
sighed heavily and let me go at last. Then
he put on his hat, grabbed his black bag and headed out the door. I sat alone on my bed.
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I hold my breath and slide completely under the warm bath
water, rinsing that man’s filth off of me.
I feel violated, even though he hadn’t molested me. But every place his hands have touched feels
dirty. I lie suspended, floating under
the surface of the water for as long as I can hold my breath, then sit up,
gasping for air.
Matt, where are
you? I need you. I’m pretty good at being a tough broad and
holding myself together in a crisis, just like tonight, but sometimes, I’ll
admit, I get the shakes when the dust settles and it’s all over with. Matt always holds me tight and makes me feel
better. What I really need right now are
his big, comforting arms around me, telling me everything will be all right.
Tonight was a close call. I didn’t like the feel of that lowlife Johnson’s
knife against my skin, his wretched body pressed to mine, his breath hot on my
neck. I shiver involuntarily and sink
back down into the warm bath.
I lie back against the end of the oversized metal tub and
try to think reassuring thoughts about Matt instead. I wonder where he is right now and if he is
thinking of me. I let water trickle
through my fingers and think back to the time we took a picnic to the river,
supposedly to go fishing, but I can tell you that not much fishing went on that
day. It was not long after I’d become half-owner
of the Long Branch, and Matt and I had become lovers at long last.
I’d worn my prettiest, frilliest dress of cornflower blue
with a matching blue parasol, and, once we were safely out of town and away
from prying eyes, we’d ridden seated close together in a buggy from Moss
Grimmick’s stable across the prairie to the riverside. Matt had gotten out his fishing poles and sat
by the edge of the water, pretending to watch his line, but I could feel him
watching me instead while I spread a quilt on the grass in the shade and placed
the picnic basket nearby.
Suddenly, Matt was standing behind me, his hand wrapped
around my waist, whispering in my ear, “Take your dress off, Kitty.”
My breath hitched in my throat. I didn’t turn around, but slowly unbuttoned
my dress and let it drop to the grass while he stood silently behind me. We were so in love with each other’s bodies
in those days; we couldn’t get enough of each other. It was a rare occasion that we didn’t take
advantage of even a few stolen minutes alone together to make love. Today was to be no exception.
Matt stepped around me and went to lie on his side on the
quilt, propped on his elbow. He looked earnestly
up at me, saying, “I want to watch you undress, Kitty.” He pushed his hat back on his forehead with
his index finger and waited patiently, his blue eyes warming my skin even
beneath my frilly underthings.
Without thinking, I removed my remaining clothing, infinitesimally
slowly, piece by piece, taking my sweet time.
Matt’s eyes never wavered, drinking me in until I felt my center become
molten with desire for him. I could see
his reaction to me as well; my eyes glanced at the front of his pants
momentarily, but then returned to his intense gaze as I stripped completely naked
for him. I’d learned that he liked my
hair down best, so lastly I raised my arms above my head to remove the hairpins
binding my red curls. I let them fall
down my back, shaking them out for his eyes only.
“Come ‘ere…” he breathed, reaching out an arm to me.
I walked closer, a small smile curving my lips, goose bumps
rising on my skin as a breeze from the river wafted over me, but more than
that, in anticipation of what Marshal Matt Dillon had in mind for me. I lay down on my side opposite him, my
posture mimicking his, as his crystal blue eyes scorched a path over my
body.
With his free hand, he traced the curve of my waist and hip
and down my thigh as I closed my eyes and gave in to the sensations washing
over me. His rough, calloused hands were
a delicious sensory counterpoint against my smooth, tender skin. He continued to touch and caress my bared
body, his hands moving hungrily over every part of me, kneading and massaging
until I gave a shuddering sigh and let my head drop back limply against the
quilt. When his lips joined his hands in
pleasuring me, I thought I might shatter into tiny little pieces.
I had never before let any man touch me or kiss me the way
Matt Dillon did. No man had ever taken
the time or patience to love me like he did.
He was so gentle and kind, a giving lover, and I felt cherished,
worshipped even. Matt’s skill at
lovemaking easily pushed memories of Cole Yankton and all the clumsy, paying
customers from my unfortunate past to the farthest recesses of my mind. I only had room in my heart, and my life, for
my sweet cowboy.
“Your turn,” I whispered to him as I started unbuttoning his
shirt, flipping his hat playfully off the back of his head. Without further ado, he stood and shucked his
clothing, quick as a wink. I smothered a
grin as he hurriedly lay back down beside me, a sweet, lazy smile on his
face. I kissed his chest, and slowly
slid my hand downward, following the masculine trail of hair to his heated,
silken shaft. I stroked him long and
slow, over and over, until I knew by the sounds he was making that he was close.
Then I wrapped a leg over his waist, and he placed a gentle
hand in the small of my back, drawing me urgently to him. We joined together as one, rocking back and
forth, back and forth, kissing feverishly until our lips were swollen and wet, and
our passion was spent.
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Haunting mental images of Eustace sliding his knife down my
body make me shudder. I stare at the
bathwater as it drips from my fingertips, and wonder again: Where
are you, Matt? I need you right now.
Sometimes I wonder to myself what he ever saw in me. A saloon girl, forced to earn my living
through unsavory means. The memory of
Eustace Johnson calling me a red-headed whore tonight reverberates hatefully in
my ears. I sink lower into the tub and
cover my face with my wet hands. What must Matt have thought of me in the
beginning? But, in spite of it all, we
had become friends right from the start.
Matt was always good to me, even before we became lovers. He overlooked my faults and saw what was
inside.
And he and Doc helped me get out of that bad business for
good. I’d saved and scrimped for years
to be able to afford half-interest in the Long Branch, so I wouldn’t have to invite
those awkward, pawing, lascivious strangers up to my bed. But when Matt found out my plan, he and Doc insisted
on loaning me the last little bit of the money so I could go ahead and buy it
immediately. He wanted me to quit taking
other men up to my room right then and there.
That’s when I found out Matt Dillon wanted to be the only man in my
bed. I was surprised to be sure. We’d been close friends for years. I don’t know what made him decide to take our
relationship further. I’m just awful
glad he did.
I lean my head back into the water to rinse the soap from my
hair, thinking of the first time we’d ever made love. I’d been surprised at his prowess, wondering
where a nice boy like Matt had ever learned to... Ah, well…I really don’t want to know that
now, do I? But I had let Matt touch me
and kiss me in places no man had ever before.
He made me feel so desirable, not just for the quick poke all the men
who paid me were after. Matt knew how to
love a woman, body, heart and soul.
I bite my fingernail at the memory and then lie back in the
tub. My throbbing woman’s flesh is yearning
for Matt’s touch, and my hands tentatively touch my breasts just like he would,
my thumbs circling my aching nipples until they jut forward. My hands slide down my wet belly until they
reach the juncture of my thighs. I touch
myself there like I know Matt would. My
eyes drift closed, and I pretend that my hands are his. My breath starts to come more quickly and I
hear a small sound escape my own lips.
No more than a whisper… Matt, I need you…
“I’m right here, honey.”
I start and look behind me.
Matt is sitting on a chair, legs crossed, watching me quietly.
My face flushes hot.
“Matt Dillon, I can’t believe you…”
He stands lazily, striding up to the tub and pushing his
Stetson back on his forehead. “Can I
help you with something, little lady?”
He grins down at me and drawls, “I live to serve…”
“Oh!” I huff and
stand straight up, water streaming off me.
I wrap my arms around his neck and press my body against him, heedless
of getting him soaking wet. I bury my
face in his neck and inhale his comforting scent of horse flesh and gun oil and
male sweat, and I murmur, “I missed you, Matt.”
“Obviously…” he grinned.
“Oh…” I sputter.
“You…” In exasperation, I nip his
plump bottom lip softly.
“Ow…” he laughs, wrapping his arms around me, caressing my wet
bottom until my belly is burning insistently, slow and low.
I tiptoe to whisper in his ear, “Get in here with me, Matt.”
A small groan escapes his lips. “I can’t, honey. I’ve got to…”
“Please, Matt.” I
shiver involuntarily at the memory of Johnson’s grip around my neck, his
threats of what he wanted to do to me. “Don’t
leave me now. I need you.”
He looks into my eyes, searching for something that he must
have found. Because then he reaches for
his hat, tossing it on the chair. I sigh
in relief as he peels off his brown vest, and I help him unbutton his blue shirt
and pants. Sitting back down into the
water, I watch as he strips off the rest of his clothing and reach out a
steadying arm when he splashes into the big tub with me. He settles with a groan against one end, and
I appreciatively nestle my body between his legs and lean back against his big,
comforting chest with another grateful sigh.
“Hold me, Matt.”
Kissing my shoulder warmly, he responds by wrapping his long
arms tightly around me, careful not to hurt my injured skin. I touch my lips to his forearm and close my
eyes as I lay my head back against him, listening to his drumming heartbeat. “Mmmm…” I hum, contented at last.
“Kitty, honey…”
“Yes, Matt?”
“I don’t want you dealing at the Long Branch anymore.”
“What?”
“I mean it, Kitty. I
don’t want what happened tonight to happen ever again. Dealing is a dangerous business. All it takes is one ornery, liquored up
cowboy…”
“But, Matt…”
“No ‘buts’, Kitty Russell.
You mean too much to me...” His
voice breaks and he squeezes me tighter.
“I don’t want to lose you that way.”
“Alright, Matt...”
His voice holds more than a hint of surprise, “You mean it?”
“Yes, Matt, I mean it.
I won’t deal cards anymore.”
He combs my long, tangled, wet hair away from my ear with
his fingers and whispers, “I love you, sweetheart.”
I raise my hands behind my head and wrap them around the
back of his neck, turning my head to kiss his cheek. “I love you, too, Matthew Dillon.”
I see his eyes sweep over my body appreciatively as a deep
hum reverberates from his lips. He takes
the opportunity to skim his dripping hands over my upturned breasts, caressing
and kneading, his thumbs working their magic on my rosy peaks until they are
straining against him.
Matt knows I crave the sensation of wet skin against wet
skin, the feeling so deliciously sensuous it sets me on fire. He trickles water on my body and ardently strokes
my arms, my thighs, my belly and breasts until I’m ready to beg for
release. I moan passionately, lifting my
knees and spreading my legs in invitation.
“Oh, Kitty, you’re my sweet girl…” he murmurs as his hands
slide slickly down my belly to tangle in the curls of my wet mound, long probing
fingers slipping between my pulsing, swollen folds to eagerly pleasure me. My back arches against him and I feel his lips
curving into a smile against my cheek, a low covetous rumble emanating from his
chest. He likes doing this for me.
I gasp when his fingers at last slip inside my heated
opening, caressing me within. I turn my
head to the side to nuzzle my face into his neck and whisper breathlessly,
“You’re so good to me, Matt.”
“Only because you deserve it, honey.” He touches me again in a secret spot that
only he knows about, and I cry and grip his shoulders. He soothes, “Does that feel good,
sweetheart?” He continues touching me
and loving me with his tireless hands until I’m nearly senseless.
Then I can feel my belly tightening. “Now, Matt…” I rasp. “I need you inside me now.” As I grip the sides of the tub, I am so hot
and aching and ready for him, and it wouldn’t take much to push me over the
edge right now.
He easily lifts my hips through the water and buries his
shaft inside me, slow and easy, from behind.
I feel sweat trickling down my temples and between my breasts as my body
adjusts to his size. He takes me gently,
like softly rolling waves on the water, careful not to jostle my injured
chest. I move over him and over him, and
then I tighten my inner muscles on his hard length in an intimate embrace. He gasps in surprise and within seconds, I
feel him come hotly, grinding his hips into mine until his fire is quenched. Then he holds me tightly, so tightly, one
hand reaching down in front to tenderly fondle my heavy sex. I feel myself sliding closer to the edge with
every caress of his fingertips, every murmured whisper of “Come for me, Kitty…” My head feels light, but my body feels so
heavy with unreleased passion.
I am so heavy in your arms.
So heavy… Can’t keep my eyes
open. You’re careful not to hurt the
fresh knife wound in my chest as your strong arms lovingly support me. I gasp helplessly, feeling myself slipping
and finally falling… falling…bright lights filling my unseeing eyes. Matt, are you still there holding me? Don’t let me go, Cowboy. Please hold me tightly…
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Beautiful story, and a beautiful couple.
ReplyDeleteIf possible could you please me the pictures with matt and kitty outside, she is wearing a salon dress,if that is in seasons and episode,
thank you
Dear Anonymous,
DeleteI've reread your letter, and I think I understand your question now. You're asking me what season and episode the outdoor pics of Matt and Kitty come from on my Amanda Blake Photos page? Unfortunately, if they are the ones I think you're talking about, they are not from any episode. They are from a Life Magazine photo shoot for an article on TV Westerns at the time. Only one small shot of them was used for the article, the one where Kitty is leaning over Matt in the street and he is pretending to be shot. The rest can be found in circulation on the internet. They are a Matt and Kitty shipper's dream come true, to be sure.
Thanks so much for your nice comments. I'm glad you enjoyed my story.
Lilyjack
I love your stories and I love this site!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks a bushel and a peck--that means a lot to me!
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